Being a Girl is really tuff.. :(
its 1 am n i am unable to sleep…though i need to…with all these thoughts exploding my mind and the coffee…creating a Volcano in my Stomach 
(GOD why do i love coffee so much?? Bcoz of Nidhi or Suraj or Both??!!)
after dinner i had a saddy chat with Nidhi..we were discussin abt getting married…n two things that we both agreed on were :-
=> bein a girl is really miserable sumtimes like….
-> when u have to leave ur parents for someone u love but not enuff to leave ur everything .. (even ur cute coffee mug that says u r the best daughter in this whole world 
)
-> n when u r parents say that u can never take their responsibily when they grow old bcoz u r a girl n girls cant do that, n girls shudnt do that n girls are not supposed to do that.. (ugh!! what crap )
=> we are not grown up enuff to get married… we r so young ourselves…we arent ready for such a huge responsibilty…
we have our dreams our ambitions our goals….how can we sacrifice all of them n just leave with the next person who arrives at ur door step askin for u..
i mean its all so yuck….i wish i was a boy…n i agree with Nidhi in sayin that i hate sayin that i hate bein a girl.. (i dont understand dis sentence )
i love a lot of things abt being a girl…but not these ones..
i accidentally came across this song…this song is good…but it makes me cry…so i had hidden it in the deepest corners of my laptop…i found it today n i cried
“jo ab kiye ho daata…
aisa na keejo…
agle janam mohe bitiya na keejo…
kaisa naseeba jug me,
har bitiya paaye…
apna jinhe samjhat hai,
bane wo paraye….
babul ka angna choote..
maiya ka achra…
bholi chiraiyya paawe bus ek pinjra…
fir bhi ye sub samjhawe tadpa ne keejo…
agle janam mohe bitiya na keejo…
jo ab kiye ho data aisa na keejo…
hmmm hmmm hmmmm bitiya na keejo…”
Sometimes i feel that GOD is really mean….he needs to change his PR policies or else he shall be flooded with tears n prayers always…. forever n ever…
God keep my parents Happy n in Good Health no matter where i am or what i do… (no matter that i am not the Girl they are proud of) … give them everything they wish for…
all my smiles n this whole life is for them… 
love u MOMMY…PAPA.. miss u a lot…
i wish i cud live with u forever….for 1000000000000 years n more..
i want my childhood days bak… some body pls get me back there…
love u more than nething in this WORLD
Chaitra
(note: stole the pic from Nidhi’s collection… sorry.. NIDHI )
Yes Happy DIWALI :)
belated actually….
there are a lot of things to write abt from this trip…
i will put the highlights of everyday in points(its exams time u c, to the point answers)
=> Fight big big fight with the roomie .
=> Home Sweet Home
=> Surprise sweet sweet one (Suraj)
=> Nidhi said Boys shud get 1/10 for being boys (LOL) .
=> MOM ANGRY big time… nearly killed me..
=> Cudnt go out with Suraj.. (no one angry only me saddy )
=> Forgot Nidhi’s Tshirt twice… Nidhi pissed off me sorry.. n the tee rests with me…
=> Nidhi gone…Me n Suraj came bak together had a good time… me Happy Happy.
Suraj gone me Home.. all good but still Incomplete
love u all
n miss u… (MUM, DAD, CHETAN, NIDHI,SURAJ, HOME)
Chaitra
I am Tired and Lost
really….its like i wake up early n sleep late but still i run short of time…. i need a few more hours bfore i can sleep satisfied with me day n my efforts..
suddenly its that time of the year when everything wants to happen at the same time..
–> me internal exams.
–>Diwali
–> a family holiday.
–> my externals.
–> my brother shifting his base.
–> me hunting and deciding for a career (and wondering do i really want one!! or i dont..?? i seriously dunno, i guess i want both )
ummmmm i really dunno how to mannage things n m lost in my priorites…
will find a way n come bak…
tata
tc
Chaitra
Our new BLOG
http://hungrykya.wordpress.com
our means mine and Nidhi’s …. its basically a food blog… we both bein the foodies decided to start dis up…
chek it out..
Chaitra..
